Maybe it's me, or maybe it's the other person.  Maybe it's both of us.  Ever have sudden drawbacks with your friends and you wonder what is causing it? Well in recent times one of my best friends and I have been sort of getting into little tiffs.  Not full blown arguments, but I find we're not connecting anymore as we used to and maybe it's all in my head or maybe it's because we haven't seen each other in two months but it has been really bothering me lately.

Ever have those awkward moments with friends? The kind where you don't talk to them for a bit and it's hard to just get back into chatting things up with them like old times because things have just changed?  For instance, she got a new job in her field and a brad new boyfriend and I am ever so happy for her as I would be for anyone else.  But I find that she has said some things like I may be a negative influence towards her or that she wants to make sure everything is right in her life before she continues on with friendships.  It's like she has put a hold on friendships just to make the rest of her life "safe."  And you would think, great times like these call for times of friendship and happiness, sharing of stories, you name it!  The fact that I had to find these things out from other people when she mentioned I was her best friend hurts.

I Suppose I will do what I have continued to do: focus on the reasons why we have been friends for 6 years. The reasons are that we actually do understand each other.  When things go wrong, there will always be a resolution - whether or not this resolution happens now or not for a while - something will come out of this and it will be positive because we have been through so much.  There is a reason why we are friends and although changes have happened in our lives, somehow, someway, it will redirect us back.

Positive feelings! Please send some positive vibes my way!
~Melissa

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